i'm still standing (file under 1st year MFA wrap up)

so here I am a survivor of the 1st year of my MFA program... woo hoo! congrats & mad props to any & all who are in the same boat right now or have ever been in their lives. also thank you to all who have put up with me during this bumpy yet exciting ride.

i have been 
pushed 
pulled 
questioned
loved 
judged
challenged
up
disappointed
worked
excited
sick to my stomach
elated
surprised
lonely
frustrated
spoiled
misunderstood
opened
tearful
jumping for joy
dancing
praised
down
laughing
enlightened
down right passionate
here, there & everywhere
and I know there's plenty more to come.


one of the hardest yet most exciting projects for me has been this diary. i try to approach it casually, hence the cool sometimes caps not caps at the beginning of sentences... it's more about getting the nerve to conquer many fears without worrying about everything being perfect. i like to call it a quest to celebrate, honor, share & appreciate the process. 

i am very thankful for every moment, person & experience! i feel good & i am very excited about the projects I have/am working on, what I'm learning & for the opportunity to teach in the fall. 

i was going to put some pics up too but it's all here already... somewhere among the pages of this diary.

ohhh and most of all THANK YOU 

for coming along on the journey with me!!! 

YES YOU!

take it away Sir Elton John...

                       I'M STILL STANDING

Music by Elton JohnLyrics by Bernie Taupin

You could never know what it's like

Your blood like winter freezes just like ice

And there's a cold lonely light that shines from you

You'll wind up like the wreck you hide behind that mask you use

And did you think this fool could never win

Well look at me, I'm coming back again

I got a taste of love in a simple way

And if you need to know while I'm still standing you just fade away

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did

Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid

I'm still standing after all this time

Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

Once I never could hope to win

You starting down the road leaving me again

The threats you made were meant to cut me down

And if our love was just a circus you'd be a clown by now

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did

Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid

I'm still standing after all this time

Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did

Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid

I'm still standing after all this time

Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah

I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah (fading) 

self portrait July 2012