Sooooo it is the end of my 1st semester of Graduate School and I made it through... It was intense, amazing, awful, crazy, sexy & cool..or was that me?
So here's what I have learned...(not necessarily in any specific order)
A)I stress about my grades!
I must admit that I am more than a little obsessive and therefor disappointed in myself over the fact that I do not end it with perfect grades.
Why does this really irk me?
1. I am a perfectionist (about most things)
2. I have a fear of A-'s (ever since my 1st
undergraduate art history class, where I got
my 1st A-, this is when I really started to
care about what I was studying,not primarily
my grades & worked my ass off to raise my
GPA)
3. Making up for all the previous school years
of coasting through without ever really
trying,even being placed on academic
probation & could have cared less about
learning or grades as long as I passed.
What to do about it?
Stop whining & start working harder!
Read more Theory!
B) I don't like talking about myself... so I am not very good at it when I need to be...like during critiques or when people ask what I do. I think I bore others and myself talking...my art is about this..and my art is about that.... UGGGHHHHH!!! Do they have a class that's called "Kick Ass Art Talk to Wow All"?
D) Be more open to listen & learn without judgement of self or others.
E) All night passion get's me through the day.
F) I am enjoying Miami yet do not feel truly connected...more like a visitor. Which is all my own doing, as I have been in limbo...between Palm Beach & Miami, the past & the present, the old & the new, the comfort zone & the danger zone... I don't want to let go... but I don't want to miss out.
G) Everything is coming full circle as far as my interest in materials. I started as a graphic design student and ditched that after my 1st semester in undergrad... but now I am designing more regularly(for my job & myself). Drawing has always been my main gig since childhood...until life painting circa 2007. I haven't drawn very much if at all since, but have a strong desire to do so again. So I signed up for graduate drawing to work on a collaborative drawing project which I'm super excited about.
Overall my 1st semester is equivalent to a roller coaster ride complete with up's & down's, twists & turns, tears & jeers... which I suspect will continue throughout till the very end.
Admittedly I have always loved the most adventurous of coasters. On summer action park vacations, my father & I would be the only one's brave enough to try the one's that you stand up in, go backwards, and even end mid air...fearlessly. So while embarking on this journey, I am going to do what I have always loved to do on those rides... I'm gonna throw my hands up & laugh my ass off!
So here's what I have learned...(not necessarily in any specific order)
A)I stress about my grades!
 |
| Why an A- !? WHY?!!! |
Why does this really irk me?
1. I am a perfectionist (about most things)
2. I have a fear of A-'s (ever since my 1st
undergraduate art history class, where I got
my 1st A-, this is when I really started to
care about what I was studying,not primarily
my grades & worked my ass off to raise my
GPA)
3. Making up for all the previous school years
of coasting through without ever really
trying,even being placed on academic
probation & could have cared less about
learning or grades as long as I passed.
What to do about it?
Stop whining & start working harder!
Read more Theory!
B) I don't like talking about myself... so I am not very good at it when I need to be...like during critiques or when people ask what I do. I think I bore others and myself talking...my art is about this..and my art is about that.... UGGGHHHHH!!! Do they have a class that's called "Kick Ass Art Talk to Wow All"?
C) Yeah...I'm really just a sensitive artist. Perpetrating like I am the hardest. I need to develop a thicker skin!!! Won't be defined by failures! Take more chances!!! Work! Work! Work! Pure ENERGY!(Thanks Jerry Saltz for coming to South FL & reminding me. XXO XXO)
D) Be more open to listen & learn without judgement of self or others.
E) All night passion get's me through the day.
F) I am enjoying Miami yet do not feel truly connected...more like a visitor. Which is all my own doing, as I have been in limbo...between Palm Beach & Miami, the past & the present, the old & the new, the comfort zone & the danger zone... I don't want to let go... but I don't want to miss out.
G) Everything is coming full circle as far as my interest in materials. I started as a graphic design student and ditched that after my 1st semester in undergrad... but now I am designing more regularly(for my job & myself). Drawing has always been my main gig since childhood...until life painting circa 2007. I haven't drawn very much if at all since, but have a strong desire to do so again. So I signed up for graduate drawing to work on a collaborative drawing project which I'm super excited about.
Overall my 1st semester is equivalent to a roller coaster ride complete with up's & down's, twists & turns, tears & jeers... which I suspect will continue throughout till the very end.
Admittedly I have always loved the most adventurous of coasters. On summer action park vacations, my father & I would be the only one's brave enough to try the one's that you stand up in, go backwards, and even end mid air...fearlessly. So while embarking on this journey, I am going to do what I have always loved to do on those rides... I'm gonna throw my hands up & laugh my ass off!
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